Tuesday, 22 September 2015

Heyheyheyhey!

I have slept 9 hours in 4 days and I'm very tired very "energitec" very sad and very numb and some way scared and anxious and everything so this time is very chaotic right now but I juts try to watch movies and yeh, so why I came here to post was those pictures I promised and here they come

(I really don't have anything to write, I'm still at Tampere and my life is pretty boring...couple nights ago happened something really....horrible and terrifying but it's so big and complicated and just horrible thing and too personal to write it here so I will leave it)

(And then I've just been watching Spongebob Squarepants and doing some puzzles from internet)










One of these things I did



~ Every step I take, every move I make
   Every single day, every time I pray
   Thinkin of the day, when you went away
   What a life to take, what a bond to break
   I'll always be missing you

Monday, 14 September 2015

I HAVE BEEN AWAY, YAY...........

Oh, hi, what's up, heh. I'm too tired to tell with details where I've been and what I've been doing, so let pictures to tell...and few words...So I moved to Tampere and I'll live here for a while now because of reasons, I live in my sisters apartment BUT my sister is with her girlfriend SO they are in another city! My mother were here 1 and half a week with me and we just got to know this place (my mother lived here when she was younger but this place has changed a lot) and then we were just shopping and taking care of stuff. SO when she left we agreed that she will buy me new phone because this my old phone is fucking living its last days and it's so SAD, I have had this phone like 3 years...ugh...But yeah, I'm getting new phone, YAY. I haven't done much...just jogging and everything...
(FIRST YOU SAY  NOTHING AND THEN EVERYTHING?!
- Yes,, hi...)

Then one person came to talk to me in Kik. he had talked me before, but I didn't remember what we had talked about but whatever... I SAID that he can't handle me right now, because I'm realshitfuckedupanoyingbitch right now because I'm battling world war III with myself so he just said that he will be there for me and I will not get right of him that easily, I literally was just laughing because I knew he can't and after 2 days he was gone, he just dind't talk to me anymore, or he didn't come to talk to me even if he said he would come talk everyday (because I'm person who really don't go to talk to people because I feel like I'm disturbing their whole life with it even if they say that I can talk to them always....and if they don't come to talk to me I'm NOT interested to even welcome them to my life...so yeah, if you want to talk to me, prepare yourself with this), ehehehe....I'm so full of shit hi...no but really, I think I'm nice person, I know I lose my nerves really easily but if you get to knew me, it easy to soothe me and yeah....but now. those pictures...(oh and I got to borrow camera from my sister AND OH there will be SO FUCKING MUCH pictures!)





I have couple new comics too yet!





My new hoodie!



And then stuff from internet to tell about my life right now












Markplier is my love rigth now...(not winning those my REAL loves, but yeah)
and my mother fell in love with him little too when we were
watching him playing until dawn (which looks so amazing that I have to get it







And btw...I have AGAIN pictures I have to edit before publishing BUT this time I try to get them here, but yeah, Byee!

~ You know what would be nice rigth now?
    Me, You, pizza, cuddling and Netflix

Thursday, 27 August 2015

Night guys!

I've been staring at this like half an hour and thinking what I'm going to write. It's 4 a.m and my sleeping rythm is little bit wrong...pff...
But yeah, I was planning to go to my brothers Yesterday/Day before Yesterday....you know, over the last night...And yes I was there, about 3 minutes and I came back to home, I just felt I was not so welcome to be there, my brother was okay with me but one other person wasn't....So my brother took me back home, I didn't talk anything, either did he...I haven't talk to him after we left and I know I should because I think he thinks that it was his fault I left....I will go there on Saturday because my parents are going and we will (they will) eat my birthday cake and stuff...Ugh, I don't want to.

Then...My Instagram is fucking with me and it's so annoying...I need new telephone because I think it's my phone which is fucking with me actually...
Then I was thinking if I should make new video again someday and start making them more, it would be good practise to me and it would be fun...
I dyed my hair Today again and my sidecut is almost white now, heh.

I will stay up all night I think and try to stay awake next day and go early to sleep then. (I don't think it's going to happen btw)  I will just update my DeviantArt and Tumblr and watch youtube videos and some netflix I think....So bye now then I think, heh.

Picture from last night...I wasn't happy



Sunday, 23 August 2015

Sick, sick and sick


Hi! So I've been sick from the day I was at my sisters girlfriends house, remember when I told? So it's couple of week already and damn, I thought I was getting better but no....this sucks. I was supposed to go to my brothers house Yesterday but we both are sick. Now I'm just sitting in my bed (like always) watching The Walking Dead (like always) and thinking about stupid thing (LIKE ALWAYS)....I posted post about my gender problems to Tumblr, it's short post but anywaysgays....And now my head is just going to explode about those things like genderfluid things and agender and pangender and everything...I can't stand myself right now because I have known for a long time  that I'm something like genderfluid/pangender/agender but god help me I'm so confused and mixed-up... And then that only person I can talk about this and who really knows my thought and problems is my bestfriend, like if I tried to talk to my family memebers they wouldn't understand/ laughed at me/ wouldn't accept me/ wouldn't believe me 'cause they would say I'm just seeking attention, so yeah, FUCKING nice....

Maybe I just leave this here...maybe I'll talk about this thing little bit more later but I can't stand this right now....I'm so fucking oweijoiwehfoiihwegh.....Yeah, byee...




Thursday, 20 August 2015

Heyy

So, I just to came post pictures of my new hair!

I'm alone at home so I'm just listening music very loud and keeping Foreveralone-parites! So yeah, here comes those pictures!



Tuesday, 18 August 2015

Hair and nothing

Hi guys! One day, I actually tried to post text when I was jogging and I paused to sit by the bridge, BUT my lovely phone is shit and doesn't want to publish them.

But yeah, i dyed my hair and cutted it again so yay, there is something new and I've just very bad picture of them but I'll take better picture Tommorow, I'm going to Jyväskylä with my mother because there is Match show.




















Oh, and btw, I did DeviantArt! Yay!
http://mamewww.deviantart.com/

And what else then...I don't know, I woke up Today at 3 p.m because I went to sleep something like 5-6 a.m...eh, but yeah...

(oh...and Yesterday I watched Hollow Crowm ep. 2 and DIED because of Hiddleston!)